If she chooses to go to the cafeteria, she will phone Moko-san, who is totally unsympathetic of her plight.
The best choice is for Kyoko to decide that she should go see Tsuruga-san's filming. She knows that just cowering here won't do. She can't do her role if she is hated by him. So she decides to go see it. She walks there with heavy footsteps.
At the site, Ren is busily filming. Yashiro calls out to Kyoko. "Kyoko-chan!" He said it's great. He thought she won't be coming till dinner. Kyoko says it was hard to bear worrying alone. Yashiro agrees, it is not a good thing to worry alone. Kyoko also adds she wants to see him act, she likes seeing him in his role. But she starts to get negative thoughts again. Yashiro says he understands, after all, Ren can be scary when he's angry. But you'll be safe as long as he's working.
Kyoko watches as the director gives Ren stringent requests, which he follows. Yashiro actually tells Kyoko that Ren's state of mind is actually unfavorable. Kyoko almost didn't believe him. Yashiro signals her to look at Ren. The director tells Ren that his expression is too stiff, and perhaps they should take a break. Ren of course, insists that they should continue.
And so they continue the filming, but Kyoko doesn't want to see any more. Yashiro asks where is she going. She says she's going back to her room. The pain won't stop. She decides to return to her room, take a bath, and reset everything.
Regardless of what happened, Kyoko is back in her room. She takes a relaxing bath, and releases all those worries holding her.
"What will it take for him to forgive me?" When she thinks about how to use her acting skills, all she could think about was Tsuruga-san's angry face. She feels a tightening pain within. The fear that he may never speak with her again grips her, and she feels even colder.
She sinks into the bath. Then bursts out gasping for air of course. :P
She thinks about being hated by Ren. Those fangirls previously, they must have bigger presence then she does. She felt like crying, so she washes her face clean.
After her bath and her "image training", she goes down to the lobby. She wants to head to the cafeteria to get a meal, but she meets Yashiro along the way. He calls out to her. Kyoko asks him about the shoot. Yashiro says that Ren's parts are mostly done, so all that's left is hers. She gets into negative spirit again, thinking she has not done her job well. He tries to encourage her, saying there's still tomorrow.
Yashiro informs her that Ren is changing now, and invites her to join them for dinner. Kyoko turns him down, saying that Ren is probably still mad at her. Yashiro senses something amiss. He asks Kyoko, is Ren angry at her because of something which he had told her? "Like getting a kiss to make you fall in love? Something somewhere along that line?" Yashiro is spot on. Kyoko answers, "No, I'm the one who said it. It's my fault in the end."
"I knew it." Now Yashiro is feeling down too. "I'm sorry. All this is my fault." Kyoko says he's not to blame, it's some stunt she decided to try after listening to what the director said. Yashiro shakes his head, saying it definitely is his fault after all.
"What are you guys talking about?" Ren's sudden appearance shakes her. She turns around to see him coming over. "Ah, Ren. I was just thinking of inviting Kyoko with us for dinner. It's fine, right?" Kyoko whispers to Yashiro saying she should refuse. "I don't mind," answers Ren. Even though that was his answer, he says it in an absolute zero temperament. A 3 way option at this point.
The best option is to say thanks. Yashiro will rub it in Ren's face. "Ren isn't angry any more. It wouldn't be mature of him to continue to be angry." (He's probably the only person who dares to do that.) Yashiro assures Kyoko that she will be safe. Kyoko is very scared, but she goes along.
If she tries to refuse or come up with an excuse, Yashiro will latch on to her hand, making sure she can't escape. Then he drags her along. ^_^
(Note: Up until this point of time, it was just simply referred to as a meal. It wasn't until much later, where this meal was indicated as dinner. Furthermore, the sky is still bright, which made me wonder if it really was supposed to be dinner.)
Anyway, regardless of what happened, they are in the cafeteria sitting together. None of them has said a single word. Yashiro opens his mouth first. "Ren." He shakes Ren's shoulder. "What is it, Yashiro-san?" "I'm sorry! It was me! I gave Kyoko-chan those ideas!" He declares apologetically with both hands on the table. Yashiro confessed it was he who gave Kyoko the idea about the kiss with such an easy-going attitude. Ren just retorts how "easy-going" that was to ask something like that. These words really stabbed Kyoko. Yashiro protests that request might as well have came from his own mouth, Kyoko-chan should have nothing to do with it.
Kyoko can see Yashiro desperately pealing to him for her sake. Yet she is unable to say anything. She couldn't even look up. At this rate, things would only get worse. Suddenly, Ren gets up. He says he's finished, so he will be returning to his room now. Yashiro persuades him to stay. Ren just smiles, saying he ate the minimum amount needed. (Yashiro wasn't talking about the food.) Kyoko feels a stabbing pain, thinking he probably wants to be away from her. She wants to apologise, but she stays stunned, while he turns around to leave. Yashiro calls to him again. Ren just replies he wishes to be alone. He then leaves. Yashiro wanted to chase after him, but he stays behind. He and Kyoko both sighs.
Yashiro says in the end, he wasn't able to follow up on anything at all. Kyoko insists it's not his fault. Her easy-going attitude would offend any professional. Yashiro says that's not the reason. He knows it too well. It's because they're talking about Kyoko-chan here, that's the reason. He says Ren treats this matter with Kyoko very seriously. She is important to him. Kyoko doesn't understand any of that. Yashiro says he can't be the one to tell her.
Kyoko is confused. Is there another reason for Tsuruga-san's anger? Yashiro asks her how does she feel. He asks her to recall back the previous incidents. She thinks for a while, but she does not give any satisfactory answer. "So, what do you think might have happened if he does kiss you?" This stabs her. "Tsuruga-san is not such a flippant person."
Yashiro: Well, that is indeed true... Kyoko: So the reason has to be the kiss itself. Yashiro: A kiss is not a small matter to you too, right?
Yashiro continues in vain to convince Kyoko. "It's only because it's Ren, that's why you can ask this, right?" That is indeed true. Yashiro tells her, in any case, he will be back to normal by tomorrow. But Kyoko is not the least convinced, and is still feeling down. She feels her chest tightening.
Kyoko says she will return to her room. Despite Yashiro's protests that she hasn't really eaten anything yet, she still leaves.
Kyoko walks towards her room in her hotel. She looked downwards the whole way, not having the mood to look at anyone. She is fighting back tears.
Back in her room, she thinks to herself. What should see do? He must still be very angry. It was a terrible thing to ask. It's not like they have a special relationship. What if she never sees him again outside of work?
She starts to cry softly. It would have been a lot better if this was one of his usual anger fits. Could he forgive her like what he usually does? She hold her knees and sobs, thinking of what Ren thinks of her now. What if she did like him? Is that why it's so painful to be hated by him?
She continues to cry. She tells herself not to, she needs those eyes for the shoot tomorrow. But the tears won't stop. But even so, the importance of this job could not compare to the graveness of being hated by Tsuruga. What a failure as a professional... That's how he would chide her. But wait, he won't chide her like that again. Just the pure thought of that makes her heart ache. She wishes it will all just go away.
This isn't love. Love shouldn't have to hurt this much, right? Yet, why won't the pain go away? Why does it feel like she's drowning? She never knew such a kind of love exists.
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